Round and round I go, where I stop, nobody knows.
Seems fitting, doesn't it?
The world goes on around me, making me dizzy, lightheaded, tired. No one knows why, or how. No one knows how to make it stop.
I decided to start this blog as a way to get out my feelings, the good, the bad, and the ugly. I will try to post regularly my thoughts and feelings on life as I continue on this crazy journey.
A bit about me and the reason I started this-
For the past 3 years, I have been dealing with an unknown medical condition. I have episodes of lightheadedness, where the world feels foggy, spacially unsteady, and disconnected from me. I get headaches that make me cry. I can't walk outside very far without feeling like I am going to fall. I have a hard time focusing on tasks. I cannot drive. I cannot go out in public alone without fear of having another episode. I am to the point that a wheelchair may be needed just to go shopping. I am unable to work due to these symptoms. I have been to countless Dr.s, specialists, therapies; had scans and blood work done, over and over again. The symptoms come and go.
Both my mom and my husband, my rock, my amazing support, work full time but still try to take time off to get me to appointments. When we got married, the episodes had stopped. We thought for good. We weren't so lucky. They returned, worse than before. We still don't have a diagnosis.
We know what I don't have, thank God. We know that whatever is going on will not kill me.
It has, however, taken away a part of my life. I want to dance again. I want to take my sons out for ice cream after school. Grocery shop by myself. Drive to the beach. Work my full time job.
My husband deserves a well wife, my children deserve a well mother. So we search. And we fight. And we pray.
Meanwhile, the bills just keep coming. Ambulance trips, ER visits, scans, bloodwork, Dr appointments, prescriptions for things it might be, supplements for things to attempt to help the symptoms. It all adds up. And up. And up. And we can't pay it. With his paychecks and my short term disability insurance, we are barely keeping our heads above water with daily expenses. So here I am. Swallowing my pride and asking for a bit of help.
Thank you. Below is the link to my Go Fund Me page if you feel so inclined.
Megan's Medical Fund-GoFundMe
